Bra shopping with my sister.

   So earlier this month I had a very important event, my sister's 18th birthday. YAY!! I was so excited about it for several reasons. To explain, let me go back a few months ago. 

   About a month or two before I started this blog, I let my sister know a little bit about myself. In all reality she doesn't know much, she just knows that I cross dress, and like to wear nail polish, and so on. She even knows that I wear a bra everyday. She took it fairly okay. She doesn't like it at all, and she's made it clear that she will not ever go out in public with me if I look too much like a lady. She still sees me as her older brother, and doesn't want to let go of that ideal.

   However much she doesn't like it, I know she is trustworthy. I trust her more than anybody in the world. I know that she would never let anybody know, and has even covered for me a few times. What an amazing sister. She doesn't pass judgement on me, too much anyways.

   The funny thing is, she is not your extreme feminine girl either. She likes to get dirty, likes to rough it up a bit, and above all else, absolutely HATES shopping. Because our mother has ingrained in her how to shop, she will only buy cheaper clothes. Now don't get me wrong, wal-mart is one of my top places to shop, but she NEVER buys anything nicer. She's never had jeans that cost more than $20, she's never bought outfits that were in style, and above all, she's never owned a nice bra. This took me back a bit. I mean, if I were to count every time I purchased a bra, I probably owned more than she's ever had. Worst of all, her bras were all white, and uncomfortable.

   This hurt me, in a way. Here I am enjoying my favorite bras by Victoria's Secret, while she never had the luxury of even knowing what one felt like. So I took it upon myself to be the older sister, and take her bra shopping to get her first Victoria's Secret bra.

   We planned it all on her birthday. I took her out to eat, and then to a VS store in a nearby city. This particular store has been very fruitful from my wallet, as I've been there roughly 10 times in the last six months. To please her, I didn't dress too androgynous, I just had juniors jeans on, and a t-shirt, with a jacket on over it. Since I looked more like a guy, I purposely wore my pink push-up bra, so that it was still evident that I had a bust line. We shopped around the mall, and finally came across VS.

    Everything was going according to my plan when out of nowhere my sister said that she didn't really want a VS bra. She kept going on how she's not a girly girl and doesn't care about a pretty bra. I really tried to get her to pick out a really nice blue leopard printed bra (her favorite color) but she was persistent that if she got one, it had to be white. It was quite a scene seeing two siblings, a brother and sister, arguing in a Victoria's Secret store. Finally we came to an agreement, if she would at least get a bra fitting, and try a colored bra on, then I'd get whatever bra of her choice.

   She went to the saleslady and asked for a fitting. She was too embarrassed to have me nearby. She also made it clear that I couldn't try on a bra either, because she was afraid of what the sales lady would think. She came out, and pick out an all black bra. At least it wasn't white!!! I found out that she is my sister in more ways than one, her bra size is the sister size to my bra size!! what a coincidence!

   Anyway I paid for her new bra, and we went home. She thanked me for paying for her bra, which cost about $50. But I knew it would be worth it. She may never tell me how much she likes it, but i know that she will fall in love with the bras and never want to get a regular bra, from just anywhere, ever again.

Waxing and hair removal cream

What is the best way to remove hair?
   I have only had experience in 3 ways to remove hair besides using tweezers, shaving, waxing and hair removal cream. But since shaving really doesn't remove the hair, just cuts it, we'll just talk about the cream, and waxing.
   First method i used was waxing. It really works best for longer lasting results. But there is a few setbacks, such as costs, pain, and rash/pimples. In my case, when i had my first waxed, several pimples formed where the hairs were, and my chest was very red for several days. It was read like acne is red, not from burning. I had a costume party, where I went in a really nice formal dress. However my neck and the top of my chest showed, and unfortunately they were covered in red pimples. It really didn't look good, and although I tried using foundation on it, they still showed through.
   Second method is hair removal cream. This works very well. I know several people complain about the burning, but it really doesn't hurt all that bad. In fact i think I get more of a burning sensation when I shave my legs. On setback is that the hair grows back rather quickly compared to waxing. Cost is really a lot cheaper and the results are really, really good.
   Out of the two, I like the cream if I am short on cash, an in a hurry. Its quick, easy, and more cost effective. However the waxing gives better results, lasts a lot longer. Also since I am a sociable kind of guy, the waxing is very tempting, especially since I like to talk to someone during the whole process. It gives me someone to talk to, and explain my thoughts out.
   So overall, waxing and hair removal cream are both good choices, especially if your like me, and can't afford permanent treatments. 

Haywire Hormones

   Okay, so I can't say I wasn't warned. I've heard several others tell me that one of the side effects of taking estrogen, is that you go through puberty all over again, but this time you get the mood swings that teenage girls get.
   "That won't happen to me!" I thought. I mean really, I'm super calm and collective, and rarely ever blow up on anybody. Well all that has changed. Big Time. Here are some of the mood/hormone changes I've noticed.
   First I'm more emotional. Seriously, after watching a movie that may be a bit touching, I have more tears in my eyes then I ever did as a guy. I tend to cry a little bit more, even when reading a book or something similar. For instance, I was watching a tv show that was archived on youtube that was about the first human to survive rabies, and half way through, when they talked about almost loosing her, the Dr. was crying, and I broke out just as bad. I mean here I am in bed with my laptop on, bawling my eyes out, in the middle of the night. Crazy.
   But it was yesterday, when I realized that the hormones really were getting to me. I have a teenage sister that was throwing a party yesterday. I was in charge of making the beverages. She was already stressed about the party, and I was stressed about getting my room clean. She started yelling at me, and I came undone on her. We had a cat fight right there in the kitchen. I mean it was different than any brother/sister fight that I normally used to have with her. It was definitely a sister/sister cat fight.
   Wow, I couldn't believe it, because after everything was said and done, I was crying on my bed, instead of my normal shrugging it off. Very weird.
   So my advise to anyone else just starting. Be ready, the first few weeks are a doozy.

13 is MY lucky number - I finally found Shoes!

Finally, after searching all over, I found a good online source, and local source for all my shoes. Payless shoes (payless.com) is carries a woman's size 13 in several sizes. At first I thought such a shoe would be too small, but I decided to go to the store in town to see if they had those sizes. After trying out 2 stores, I was told of one on the north side of where I live. They have a section that has plenty of size 13 shoes. So I headed that way.

As luck would have it, they had a perfect pair of black flats that have a bow on them, I fell in love immediately with them. They are pictured at the top. (http://www.payless.com/store/product/detail.jsp?catId=cat10088&subCatId=cat10276&skuId=091625075&productId=69922&lotId=091625&category=&catdisplayName=Womens) I tried them on and found that they were a perfect fit. I then tried on a few other pairs of shoes, and found that women's 13 is my size. Funny my pants size are Junior's 13 as well. I guess 13 is my lucky number! Anyways I went back to the black flats. They were on sale for 16.99, plus I got an extra $4 off for coming from the other store that didn't have them. I also found a denim pair of oxford styled sneakers that were very cute. They were on sale for $12. (http://www.payless.com/store/product/detail.jsp?catId=cat10088&subCatId=cat70006&skuId=089036130&productId=68815&lotId=089036&category=&catdisplayName=Womens)

I love my new shoes, and plan to hopefully buy some stylish boots to wear to work. I will be definitely checking in every month or so to see what new styles they carry. And I'll definitely be checking online as well. It's easy to navigate, and filter through their shoes to see the size you want. I then print off the shoes that I like and take it to the store. If they don't have it, then I'll order it. They offer FREE shipping to their stores if you go in and order through the store. I would definitively recommend!

Visit to the Dr.'s office.

   I had to make a visit to the doctor's office about my allergies last Monday the 17th. I called 3 months earlier, and they could only fit me in this past week. On the day of the visit, I got dressed like any other day. My new VS bra that's white with rainbow leopard spots on it, junior's jeans, t-shirt, and a cropped black sweater/shirt. My favorite green necklace and ring completed the accessories.

   Upon arriving, it took a while to get checked in. I was given a very long form filled with questions about my allergies. It took a long time to fill that out, and I was only on the second page when they called my name. I followed the nurse as she led me to a room and asked me several questions. After she left the doctor came in and I had to go through the long process of telling all about my allergies, and what I thought I was allergic to. He informed me that they will do some skin tests, and that the results will help figure out the best medicine. He went for his stestiscope, and asked me to remove my outer jacket. WHOH.. I stuttered a little bit, removed the jacket and then told him that I did wear feminine clothing. He just nodded his head and said okay, and continued to check my breathing as if it were the norm.

   He left and two nurses came in. One walked past me and started messing with the cabinets while the other spoke to me. I recognized her as the nurse that led me to the room in the first place. She said that they will be doing skin tests on my back and that I'll have to remove all my top clothing. I said okay, and then told her that I do wear ladies clothes. It was obvious, because anyone could tell I had some curves underneath my shirt. NOW COMES THE MOMENT OF TRUTH. I began to take my shirt off, while continuing "which also means that I am wearing a bra as well." THERE it was finally out! I told her, just a few seconds before taking off my shirt and exposing my Victoria's Secret bra. It didn't even phase her. She just said that the bra would have to come off as well, and asked if I wanted something to cover myself with. I told her that it didn't matter, as long as they were okay. In reality I don't have very big breasts. Although they are B cup size, they are small compared to my huge broad shoulders. She then said, "Don't be nervous, I've seen just about everything by now." and then continued with giving me 6 shots in the back.

   This whole time, the other nurse was preparing a breathing machine to test my breathing with. She didn't say a word either. Both were very professional, and went along as if it were the norm. After my 6 injections of allergians, the first nurse left, and the other began to talk to me about breathing. During this time I was sitting directly facing her with my whole front side exposed.  She was very nice and overly cheerful as she went through the breathing together. She even made me giggle during a few of the breath tests, which in turn made here giggle as well. We finished up the tests, and the first nurse came back in, looked at my back, took notes, and then wiped my back clean with an ointment to cure the now formed rashes that were making my back itch. After I got dressed again the doctor came and, and told me of the results. I'm VERY allergic to grass, cats, and dust. He mentioned that all three together make up for me having seasonal allergies all year round.

   After he gave me a prescription, I then left. It was a great experience and a milestone in my life. I wore a bra, just like I do everyday, and it was normal for those around me. I was so happy!

21st birthday en femme

My 21st Birthday was amazing!
I went shopping at a nearby town, and clubbing at a local bar. The whole day I was en femme, and I loved it. It was adventurous, and exciting all at the same time. Since my birthday was the same day as National Coming Out Day, I thought it was appropriate. Here are all the details.

Got up and got dressed as soon as my parents left for work. I had no work, since I normally have school all day long, but today school was cancelled due to fall break / faculty meeting.

Once I was dressed, I headed to the restroom to get ready. I shaved all hair off my face, (Ugggg) and then started to apply my makeup. All I used was foundation, eyeliner, eye shadow, lip gloss, and mascara. I'm not all that good with makeup, but love trying! During this time my sister got up, and I could hear her in the kitchen. I then quickly grabbed all my things, shouted goodbye, and left out the door. I hopped in my truck and took off for a nearby town about an hour away.

My plan: to go shopping at several places including the mall, and other shopping districts. The stores I wanted to hit for sure included DEB, Rue21, Dress Barn, and my favorite Victoria's Secret.

Once inside the truck (and a little bit away from home), I painted my nails, changed into sandals, and then put on my brand new wig I purchased the day before. I arrived at the city, and went straight to the mall. I walked in and started to go through each store. I know for sure the two biggest giveaways were my cheap wig, and my horrendous makeup job. From afar I looked like a girl, and from behind no one could tell, my walk was perfect and most of my mannerisms were good. However I felt that several people were staring at me. I know that several people suspected something. And since I've never tried to work on changing my voice (really I don't care anyways), every time I talked, they knew I was a guy.

I went into a seasonal Halloween shop to look around. One of the guys came up to me from behind and said "can I help you find your perfect costume Miss?" I immediately blushed, turned to him, smiled, and kindly said, "No thanks, I have my perfect costume already, thanks though!" He shuddered a bit, said okay, and walked off toward the next customer. I felt sooo happy!! :)

My next store was rue21. I look around at their sales and clothes, but was mostly interested in their sunglasses. I didn't have a feminine pair yet. So I tried several on, and got the one I liked. The sales lady was very energetic and smiled back at me a lot.

I was halfway through the mall when 10 school buses full  of high school students drove up and let their students out to roam the mall. Teens, only a few years younger than myself flooded all the stores. As I was walking around several girls would turn and smile at me. I'd just smile back and keep going as if all was normal.

One of my last stops was Victoria's Secret. I wanted to go here for sure for 2 reasons, to try on their new Very Sexy Seduction bra, and to spend my $10 gift certificate that I got for my birthday from them. I looked around for a while and the sales lady came up and asked me if I was looking for anything in particular. I asked her what she thought about their Very Sexy Seduction bra. ( http://www.victoriassecret.com/ss/Satellite?ProductID=1314943074054&c=Page&cid=1265616832781&pagename=vsdWrapper ) She gave all the quick details, then asked if I wanted to try it on. I said sure (while in my mind i was saying OF COURSE!!!). I told her my size 38B, which they didn't carry (that's usually my case) so she handed me my sister size, 36C. I went to the dressing room and tried it on. It was at this time that I really wished I had my phone on me. I really would have loved to take a few pics. Anyways, I didn't buy the bra because I really wanted it in my size. So I bought new yoga pants instead. They are black, with a pink top that has "Victoria's Secret" written all over in white.

As I was leaving the mall a homeless person sitting on the curb called out to me saying something about the pretty girl dressed in lots of color. I really didn't know how to react. I certainly never had someone jeer or call to me like this before. I just kept walking toward my truck.

I ate at McDonald's and got online as well. I decided to use my webcam to see how I looked. When I saw myself, I was like wow! I look fairly good. It was wierd, i was a little bit attracted to myself...lol. I updated my picture on a few social networks of what I looked like, and then left for more shopping.

I stopped by a local gas station to use the restroom because I knew they had the single rooms. Even though I was en femme, I didn't want to use the ladies room with others in it. I am very conscience on other's feelings, and try to respect others as much as possible. Funny though, on my way out, a man held the door for me. I thanked him of course, but it felt weird, because I'm always doing it for the ladies.

On the way home I decided to try to take a few pictures of myself at a nearby park. Unfortunately I could only get two-three pictures in before the camera batteries died. Oh well. That's how it goes I guess.

At 10:30pm I found myself in a local gay friendly club. I took off my wig for this, but kept my makeup on, and the rest of my outfit. The only difference was that I had a hoodie on as well. The club was one that my bellydance friends wanted me to go to. It was really fun. I didn't drink anything, I just didn't feel like it was time yet. Even though I was finally old enough, and I had a lot of pressure to do it. LOL. There was a drag queen, and a few drag kings as well. They did their show and I had a great time. Got some advice from others there and made some new friends. I loved it.

My birthday was great! I got called a Miss, got jeered at, and the door was held open for me... All a first for me. It was really exciting, and I loved every bit of it!

WPATH Standards of Care NEW EDITION!!!

   During research on hormone replacement therapy this week I found out that WPATH has updated their Standards of Care. I was very much intrigued, especially since I am to meet my first therapist tomorrow, in hope to start hormones.

   I am very pleased to find out about a new edition that has been released of the Standards of Care provided by WPATH. The new, 7th Edition, has a new set of requirements for Hormone Replacement Therapy.

The old requirements were:
1. Age 18 years;
2. Demonstrable knowledge of what hormones medically can and cannot do and their social benefits and risks;
3 Either...
   A. a documented real-life experience of at least three months prior to the administration of hormones; or
   B. a period of psychotherapy of a duration specified by the mental health professional after the initial evaluation (usually a minimum of three months).

The new requirements are:
1. Persistent, well-documented gender dysphoria;
2. Capacity to make a fully informed decision and to consent for treatment;
3. Age of majority in a given country (if younger, follow the Standards of Care outlined in section
VI);
4. If significant medical or mental health concerns are present, they must be reasonably well controlled.

   This means that a person no longer needs to have a documented 3 months RLE (Real Live Experiance) living in their preferred gender. This is kind of funny, because this could mean the end of this blog. The main reason I started this blog is to document my 3 months. I now believe that I am completely eligible to take hormones now. Which is great since I have an appointment with a therapist this coming Tuesday. YAY!!!

Instead I will continue to document my journey to getting FULL breasts, and a completely feminine figure. I hope to also provide tips and hints to help others on their journey.

What I am wearing today. (Oct. 3rd 2011)
F. bra
F. tight boyshort panties (hot pink)
F. new black dress slacks
F. shaping black shirt
M. button up dress shirt
M. sleeveless sweater
M. socks

Accessories today
F. Necklace
F. Pink toenail polish
F. light-blue thumbnails
F. ring
M. dress shoes

How to wear a ladies bra and blouse to work.

Okay, I have been wearing bras to work EVERYDAY for over 2 1/2 months. In fact I've been wearing them full time, only taking one off for bed. So someone may ask, How do you not get caught? Here is my secret.

1 - Purchase The Victoria's Secret Incredible Racerback Demi Front Close Bra.
   This is important, the Racerback Demi, is lightly padded, so it gives no extra lift like many other bras. There are no strap adjusters, which makes it lay flat underneath clothing. It is front closed, which means there is no bump on the back. And last of all, all the incredible series bras are made to have no VBL (visible bra lines). It is the most unnoticable bra in the world.
http://www.victoriassecret.com/ss/Satellite?ProductID=1265602578086&c=Page&cid=1314947991808&pagename=vsdWrapper
 
2 - Go to Victoria's Secret and get fitted when purchasing this bra!
   It is important to get the right fit. Don't worry about what people will think about you. And you don't need to dress enfemme when you go either. When I first purchased this bra, I was in jeans and a t-shirt. I wanted a bra that couldn't be noticed with even a t-shirt on. The ladies helped me find a few sizes that might fit me, then I went to the dressing rooms, tried one on, and then let her see how it looked under my shirt. She was able to find the right size perfectly that way. Unfortunattly they didn't have the demi front close bra in stock in my size, so I had to order online.
   But get it done at Victoria's Secret. It is worth it, and they understand. (I got a lot of tips from them as well ;) )
  That's pretty much it for wearing a bra to work everyday. No one can tell, especially since I wear button up dress shirts to work.
   ONE OTHER ITEM i wear is a tank top under my shirt. Just in case someone were to rub my back, slap me on the back, or touch my back in any way, they would feel the lines created by the tank instead of the bra. Gives me an exuse as well. The best tank I have bought comes from Body Central. It's their one size fits all ladies tank. I've even seen a lot of guys buy these as well.

3 - WHEN WEARING A BLOUSE... if it is a little fitting, and your breast line is showing, then wear a simple sleeveless sweater over it. They are back in fashion among guys. I got mine from walmart, and wear it whenever it looks like my breast are showing too much lift. It works amazingly and you stay in fashion, plus have your favorite feminine blouse on!

Today (Friday, Sept 30) I am wearing...
F - Blue Panties
F - Blue Bra
F - Grey shaping shirt
F - white blouse, very form fitting, with silver lines.
M - sleeveless sweater
F - tan pants
M - socks and boots.

Ladies Dress Slacks

I finally did it...
I bought two pairs of dress slacks. The reason for this, is that I've needed dress slacks for some time. My old pair was two sizes too big, not very stylish, and most importantly,  they we're men's!
   I headed to the mall after church got out this morning, and tried a few pairs on. both pairs I bought are black. I'll probably get grey and navy blue pairs at the beginning of next year.
   The first pair we're ones that I got from DEB in the mall. They are juniors size 13. They are a little fitting with just a hint of a sexy butt going on. I wouldn't wear these to a church that I normally attend because it would offend people. I can't wait to find an excuse to wear these, because they are obviously noticeable as women's slacks. they scream out girl... especially with my shirt tucked in and my cute butt on full display.
   The second pair I got from JC Penny's.  They are junior size 15, just a Tad bit bigger to make them a little more comfortable and not so fitting. They feel nice, and I plan to wear them tonight. This is just another step to fulfilling my gender full time. ;)
On another note.. I bought a pair of flats, but I should wear a ladies size 14.. I tried to force my foot in a size 11 (the biggest there). It didn't work out that great. Although I managed to squeeze my foot in, they hurt my feet badly after wearing them for 10 minutes. I walked around Walmart in them, they are comfortable on the bottom, but my feet we're dying being smash so bad.
.  When I took them off, my feet had cramped, and we're hurt bad. I will not be able to wear them again, until I get the right size... I hope I can find a local shoe store that sells them.

Update and Important Appointment with Therapist

Fist I'd like to give an update as to what I've done recently.

1 Perfume

2 Bellydancing

3 Acceptance

4 Hormones?

5 Future

1 Perfume:

   Okay this past week I finally decided to buy my first perfume. It has done wonders for me. I can't explain the mental effects, but it has calmed me down a little bit. I bought Brittney Spears Radience from Walmart. It has a great scent, not too strong, and not all flowery, but obviously feminine. I have already started to wear it regularly.

2. Belly Dancing

   I love Belly Dancing. I have learned to stretch muscles that I didn't know were capable of stretching. I even used muscles that I didn't know I had. The class is wonderful for me. The girls are very accepting of my feminine figure. I wore yoga pants and a skin-tight, spandex, shirt that outlined my figure, and no one payed notice. I found out that they want me to be in a performance this December. I don't know what the costume will be, but I can't wait!

   I have started going to a yoga class as well. I had the most amazing workout Monday! The instructor was excellent in her teaching, and I learned some really good stretches.

3. Acceptance

   I have been accepted everywhere I've gone. I normally paint my thumbnails everyday to match my outfit. A lot of my classmates have given nice comments about it. One day I was wearing green and blue, so I painted my nails alternating green and blue. No one seemed to care really.
   I haven't heard any bad comments, rumers or anything about my figure either. It's obivious that I'm a bit top heavy for a guy, and I wear jeans and pants that are obviously feminine. But no one treats me any different. In fact I think that everyone treats me great because of my super positive attitude, and my smile.

4. Hormones?
   I am really close!!! Lately I've been only using herbal hormones, such as saw palmetto and fenugreek. But that all is going to change really soon. First off, I have finally scheduled an appointment with a therapist. I hope to get permission to start hormones then. I have recently read the standards of care, and have completed all requirements except for the 3 months living as desired sex, my third month will be up 1/4 into the month of October.
   I am really excited to actually begin. My appointment is this coming Tuesday! I have already searched in my area for a endocrinologist and have a few ready to call to schedule an appointment. My feelings are that of a 6 year old child, realizing that Christmas will be in the next morning. Such feelings haven't been felt for a long time.
   I am so glad I didn't give into trying black market hormones. I was so close to ordering, but decided to put my health first. Finding a therapist was actually easy once I searched only.

5. Future

   Ladies shoes/boots - I still am planning on purchasing a pair of ladies shoes. I would like to purchase them locally but am afraid that no one in town carries a size 13-15 in ladies.

   Concealer and makeup - My zits are starting to show up pretty bad. So to take care of them, I thought about purchasing concealer. I also heard that by using moisturizer on your face, it helps keep it clear of zits as well.

   Dress Pants - I am still needing dress pants for Sunday. I have been looking for quite some time, but have yet to find anything suitable. I will probably wait for November and get them then.


What I'm wearing today..
F hot pink shaping boyshorts
F Tan pants
F green socks
M boots
F light blue bra
F black shaping undershirt
F button down black dress shirt
F hoodie

Accessories today:
F perfume
F necklace
F hairband as a bracelet

Sept 19-20 Rundown - Monday and Tuesday

   Last Monday went really well. I got dressed in a nice pair of jeans (Juniors sz.13) and a sleeveless shirt and a men's dress shirt. I had on a black bra, and black shaping boyshorts. During lunch break, I stopped by walmart and got me a pair of pink boyshorts. I immediately put them on and wore them for the rest of the day.
   I showed up on my college campus for zumba class an hour early. I decided to wait by the cafe. During that time I received a text from a close friend. She was going to go to the zumba class as well. DRAT!! She has no idea about my dress habits. How could I show up to class with lavender polished toe nails? I had plenty of time to talk to her before hand, so I swallowed my nerves and talked to her about it. She had previously seen my toe-nails painted once this summer, but my sister took the blame and made the excuse that she did it. Even though I had a difficult time telling her. She was very open about it, and made it seem as it was nothing at all. Anyhow, I never got to show my toes off because the class worked out in their tennis shoes. Oh well.. :)
   I then went to my bellydancing class. I pulled the instructor aside and asked her if anyone has turned in a blue bra. I went on to explain that it was mine and that I left it there the week before. She replied that she hasn't heard anything about it, but would check with the custodian. She was very friendly about it, and told me not to be nervous or embarrassed.
   Tuesday I had to work that evening. I had a lavender dress shirt with a sleeveless black sweater over it. It looked nice my dark blue jeans.

   I will say that the bra I had on Monday was a nuisance. I'm used to racerback bras, and this one had straps like a regular styled bra that kept slipping down. I hope no one noticed me adjusting the bra straps. I did it a few time unconsciously.

   I am planning on getting ladies boots soon. Something I can wear to work. Also some light perfume that I can start wearing. I was inspired by this post on how to be girly 24 hours a day. http://feminizationsecrets.com/inner-beauty/how-to-be-girly-24-hours-per-day/

Week Rundown

Okay so today I decided give an update on my week.
   Fist things first. I WORE A BRA EVERYDAY this week, all day long even. I have yet to wear a pair of men's pants this week, except for Sunday.. But I am working on that. I'm looking for ladies dress pants to wear to church eventually.
   I wore a bra all day long on Sunday, only taking it off once to apply more deodorant. It was great, but that evening a guy friend started to squeeze my left front pocket in search of his ipod that he thought was there. My sister gasped, for she knew I probably had a bra on, and I quickly grabbed his hand and explained that I did not appreciate his act of rudeness. Luckily I had several items in my front pocket that he didn't feel, or squeeze, my bra. Now I have a small feeling what it's like to feel a bit violated for women.
   Tuesday afternoon I spent the day shopping (without money) at our local mall for jeans. I was wearing juniors size 13 bootleg jeans that day. Every store I went in, I was greeted by a nice salesperson. Several times I was asked as to what I was looking for. I simply said I was browsing for jeans. Most of them would help me find some in my size, and even gave helps. My favorite store had a pair of low rise, skinny jeans with flare legs. I tried them on, and instantly I fell in love. They hugged my rear better than any I have ever tried on, and when I looked in the mirror, I actually had a cute butt. I wish I had the money to buy them, but unfortunately, I had to put them back on the shelf. Afterwards I got the sku # so I could go back to purchase them.
   Tuesday was the first time I decided to wear a bra during my bellydancing class. I wore a 38C sports bra that was for maximum impact. I was such a good experience that I wore it again for Thursday's class. Unfortunately I decided to stay in my sports bra, and somehow I left my regular Victoria's Secret bra in the changing rooms. I don't go back until Monday...so... hopefully it's still there! That bra cost a good amount of money, and I'm not intending on losing it. But I am dreading the fact that I have to go ask my instructor if she's seen my bra. She knows that I tend to wear feminine clothing a lot, but I don't think she knows about my bras.
    So fr the time being, I have to settle with my 38C black VS bra that can be strapless if I want it to be. It's nice.. but the wrong cup size, so it doesn't fit as well. I have a 36C bra that matches the one I lost, but it's a bit snug. And of course I have all my pushup bras that fit perfectly, but they are not work appropriate right now. Maybe in the future.

   Also I am wearing flip flops more often, which in turn shows off my toe-nail polish. Last Friday, while standing in line at Mc'Donald's, I had a girl turn to me give me a compliment on them. :)
I have been wearing flip flops during all my lunch breaks this week with my nails polished a light-purple/ lavender.

   This coming Monday, I plan to start a free zumba class at my local college. I will probably simply wear warm-up pants and a sleeveless shirt. I can't wait to see the reaction I'll get when the girls see my lavender polished toe-nails.

READ FIRST

This is my first post. I created this blog to chronicle my journey to getting my shapely desires. This blog will complete three purposes for me.

1 - chronicle my growth, and shape each week.
2 - to record how often I wear my preferred feminine clothes.
3 - share my thoughts and feeling about these issues along the way.

   At this time I will give a little history from this past summer.
   Earlier this year I started taking herbal hormones to hopefully stimulate growth. It has not worked as well as I originally planned. I have found though that in taking Saw Palmetto, I can slow my testosterone levels drastically.
   I tend to cross dress occasionally, wearing bras, panties, and such. But in mid July I decided to express my fashion full time in preparation to prescription hormones. (In a transgender scenario, there is a time that the person must live as a woman full time for several months before approval to start hormone replacement therapy.) I am not transgendered, as I do not feel like a woman at all. I just want a more womanly figure. And I am proving that I can handle the results by wearing woman's jeans and pants, and also wearing a bra full time. I have been wearing a bra everyday for the last 2 months, with the exception of a few days.
  My dress fashion is my style of clothes. It includes a bra (has to be from Victoria's Secret), ladies jeans or pants (my favorite are from DEB), a guys t-shirt or dress shirt, panties or guys boxer-briefs, and socks (either gender). My underwear/panties are just depending on what I feel like I want to wear. All my men's underwear are colorful anyway, and I have several panties that I absolutely love.

   My hope is to prove that I am living full time in the gender that I want to be. A guy with a feminine body. I would love to start taking hormones before the new year. My dream is to have a more feminine waist and hips, and bigger bust, (at least a full C cup borderline D cup).


Currently wearing (Friday Sept. 9 2011)
F - Victoria's Secret Racerback Demi Bra (38B)
M - Hangs Boxer Briefs (blue)
F - Tank top
M - Dress shirt
F - Black Jeans (levi)
M - Socks (blue toes and heal)
M - Boots size 13