Update and Important Appointment with Therapist

Fist I'd like to give an update as to what I've done recently.

1 Perfume

2 Bellydancing

3 Acceptance

4 Hormones?

5 Future

1 Perfume:

   Okay this past week I finally decided to buy my first perfume. It has done wonders for me. I can't explain the mental effects, but it has calmed me down a little bit. I bought Brittney Spears Radience from Walmart. It has a great scent, not too strong, and not all flowery, but obviously feminine. I have already started to wear it regularly.

2. Belly Dancing

   I love Belly Dancing. I have learned to stretch muscles that I didn't know were capable of stretching. I even used muscles that I didn't know I had. The class is wonderful for me. The girls are very accepting of my feminine figure. I wore yoga pants and a skin-tight, spandex, shirt that outlined my figure, and no one payed notice. I found out that they want me to be in a performance this December. I don't know what the costume will be, but I can't wait!

   I have started going to a yoga class as well. I had the most amazing workout Monday! The instructor was excellent in her teaching, and I learned some really good stretches.

3. Acceptance

   I have been accepted everywhere I've gone. I normally paint my thumbnails everyday to match my outfit. A lot of my classmates have given nice comments about it. One day I was wearing green and blue, so I painted my nails alternating green and blue. No one seemed to care really.
   I haven't heard any bad comments, rumers or anything about my figure either. It's obivious that I'm a bit top heavy for a guy, and I wear jeans and pants that are obviously feminine. But no one treats me any different. In fact I think that everyone treats me great because of my super positive attitude, and my smile.

4. Hormones?
   I am really close!!! Lately I've been only using herbal hormones, such as saw palmetto and fenugreek. But that all is going to change really soon. First off, I have finally scheduled an appointment with a therapist. I hope to get permission to start hormones then. I have recently read the standards of care, and have completed all requirements except for the 3 months living as desired sex, my third month will be up 1/4 into the month of October.
   I am really excited to actually begin. My appointment is this coming Tuesday! I have already searched in my area for a endocrinologist and have a few ready to call to schedule an appointment. My feelings are that of a 6 year old child, realizing that Christmas will be in the next morning. Such feelings haven't been felt for a long time.
   I am so glad I didn't give into trying black market hormones. I was so close to ordering, but decided to put my health first. Finding a therapist was actually easy once I searched only.

5. Future

   Ladies shoes/boots - I still am planning on purchasing a pair of ladies shoes. I would like to purchase them locally but am afraid that no one in town carries a size 13-15 in ladies.

   Concealer and makeup - My zits are starting to show up pretty bad. So to take care of them, I thought about purchasing concealer. I also heard that by using moisturizer on your face, it helps keep it clear of zits as well.

   Dress Pants - I am still needing dress pants for Sunday. I have been looking for quite some time, but have yet to find anything suitable. I will probably wait for November and get them then.


What I'm wearing today..
F hot pink shaping boyshorts
F Tan pants
F green socks
M boots
F light blue bra
F black shaping undershirt
F button down black dress shirt
F hoodie

Accessories today:
F perfume
F necklace
F hairband as a bracelet

Sept 19-20 Rundown - Monday and Tuesday

   Last Monday went really well. I got dressed in a nice pair of jeans (Juniors sz.13) and a sleeveless shirt and a men's dress shirt. I had on a black bra, and black shaping boyshorts. During lunch break, I stopped by walmart and got me a pair of pink boyshorts. I immediately put them on and wore them for the rest of the day.
   I showed up on my college campus for zumba class an hour early. I decided to wait by the cafe. During that time I received a text from a close friend. She was going to go to the zumba class as well. DRAT!! She has no idea about my dress habits. How could I show up to class with lavender polished toe nails? I had plenty of time to talk to her before hand, so I swallowed my nerves and talked to her about it. She had previously seen my toe-nails painted once this summer, but my sister took the blame and made the excuse that she did it. Even though I had a difficult time telling her. She was very open about it, and made it seem as it was nothing at all. Anyhow, I never got to show my toes off because the class worked out in their tennis shoes. Oh well.. :)
   I then went to my bellydancing class. I pulled the instructor aside and asked her if anyone has turned in a blue bra. I went on to explain that it was mine and that I left it there the week before. She replied that she hasn't heard anything about it, but would check with the custodian. She was very friendly about it, and told me not to be nervous or embarrassed.
   Tuesday I had to work that evening. I had a lavender dress shirt with a sleeveless black sweater over it. It looked nice my dark blue jeans.

   I will say that the bra I had on Monday was a nuisance. I'm used to racerback bras, and this one had straps like a regular styled bra that kept slipping down. I hope no one noticed me adjusting the bra straps. I did it a few time unconsciously.

   I am planning on getting ladies boots soon. Something I can wear to work. Also some light perfume that I can start wearing. I was inspired by this post on how to be girly 24 hours a day. http://feminizationsecrets.com/inner-beauty/how-to-be-girly-24-hours-per-day/

Week Rundown

Okay so today I decided give an update on my week.
   Fist things first. I WORE A BRA EVERYDAY this week, all day long even. I have yet to wear a pair of men's pants this week, except for Sunday.. But I am working on that. I'm looking for ladies dress pants to wear to church eventually.
   I wore a bra all day long on Sunday, only taking it off once to apply more deodorant. It was great, but that evening a guy friend started to squeeze my left front pocket in search of his ipod that he thought was there. My sister gasped, for she knew I probably had a bra on, and I quickly grabbed his hand and explained that I did not appreciate his act of rudeness. Luckily I had several items in my front pocket that he didn't feel, or squeeze, my bra. Now I have a small feeling what it's like to feel a bit violated for women.
   Tuesday afternoon I spent the day shopping (without money) at our local mall for jeans. I was wearing juniors size 13 bootleg jeans that day. Every store I went in, I was greeted by a nice salesperson. Several times I was asked as to what I was looking for. I simply said I was browsing for jeans. Most of them would help me find some in my size, and even gave helps. My favorite store had a pair of low rise, skinny jeans with flare legs. I tried them on, and instantly I fell in love. They hugged my rear better than any I have ever tried on, and when I looked in the mirror, I actually had a cute butt. I wish I had the money to buy them, but unfortunately, I had to put them back on the shelf. Afterwards I got the sku # so I could go back to purchase them.
   Tuesday was the first time I decided to wear a bra during my bellydancing class. I wore a 38C sports bra that was for maximum impact. I was such a good experience that I wore it again for Thursday's class. Unfortunately I decided to stay in my sports bra, and somehow I left my regular Victoria's Secret bra in the changing rooms. I don't go back until Monday...so... hopefully it's still there! That bra cost a good amount of money, and I'm not intending on losing it. But I am dreading the fact that I have to go ask my instructor if she's seen my bra. She knows that I tend to wear feminine clothing a lot, but I don't think she knows about my bras.
    So fr the time being, I have to settle with my 38C black VS bra that can be strapless if I want it to be. It's nice.. but the wrong cup size, so it doesn't fit as well. I have a 36C bra that matches the one I lost, but it's a bit snug. And of course I have all my pushup bras that fit perfectly, but they are not work appropriate right now. Maybe in the future.

   Also I am wearing flip flops more often, which in turn shows off my toe-nail polish. Last Friday, while standing in line at Mc'Donald's, I had a girl turn to me give me a compliment on them. :)
I have been wearing flip flops during all my lunch breaks this week with my nails polished a light-purple/ lavender.

   This coming Monday, I plan to start a free zumba class at my local college. I will probably simply wear warm-up pants and a sleeveless shirt. I can't wait to see the reaction I'll get when the girls see my lavender polished toe-nails.

READ FIRST

This is my first post. I created this blog to chronicle my journey to getting my shapely desires. This blog will complete three purposes for me.

1 - chronicle my growth, and shape each week.
2 - to record how often I wear my preferred feminine clothes.
3 - share my thoughts and feeling about these issues along the way.

   At this time I will give a little history from this past summer.
   Earlier this year I started taking herbal hormones to hopefully stimulate growth. It has not worked as well as I originally planned. I have found though that in taking Saw Palmetto, I can slow my testosterone levels drastically.
   I tend to cross dress occasionally, wearing bras, panties, and such. But in mid July I decided to express my fashion full time in preparation to prescription hormones. (In a transgender scenario, there is a time that the person must live as a woman full time for several months before approval to start hormone replacement therapy.) I am not transgendered, as I do not feel like a woman at all. I just want a more womanly figure. And I am proving that I can handle the results by wearing woman's jeans and pants, and also wearing a bra full time. I have been wearing a bra everyday for the last 2 months, with the exception of a few days.
  My dress fashion is my style of clothes. It includes a bra (has to be from Victoria's Secret), ladies jeans or pants (my favorite are from DEB), a guys t-shirt or dress shirt, panties or guys boxer-briefs, and socks (either gender). My underwear/panties are just depending on what I feel like I want to wear. All my men's underwear are colorful anyway, and I have several panties that I absolutely love.

   My hope is to prove that I am living full time in the gender that I want to be. A guy with a feminine body. I would love to start taking hormones before the new year. My dream is to have a more feminine waist and hips, and bigger bust, (at least a full C cup borderline D cup).


Currently wearing (Friday Sept. 9 2011)
F - Victoria's Secret Racerback Demi Bra (38B)
M - Hangs Boxer Briefs (blue)
F - Tank top
M - Dress shirt
F - Black Jeans (levi)
M - Socks (blue toes and heal)
M - Boots size 13